having a long period din update ..
not because that i was busy ..
but lazy ..
i try to fit myself in the mood to preparing exam ..
but i still cant ...
every times i wanted to study ..
somethings juz pop up in my mind ..
past memories ..
recent feelings ..
other other else .. that affected me ..
i'm not trying to blame the one ..
which make me think much more thn ever ..
i juz cant handle those feelings anymore ..
i'm totally depressed with it ..
either hate or love it ..
i nvr know abt it ..
out of all ..
at least she is still cheering me up for my studies ..
somehow i really appreciate ..
there is still a person .. cheering me up ..
thank you ..